Ceaseless Agony

Rosanna Krich

Fists clenched tight
Knuckles turned bright red
Blood vessels explode left and right
Hatred thoughts swarm my head

You never let my cry out
Never allowed to scream
Mouth opend wide no sound coming through
Strand by strand hair pieces pulled fall to the ground

Why so much pain
Fingernails leaves scars on my face
Past years never to be replaced
Maybe I am fucken insane

Can you look into my eyes?
What are you so afraid of?
Maybe im dying
Have I already died?

My damn mother
My fucking mothers mother
Go ahead and scream at me one more time
Throw my face into the dirt, smash it in

Is god there?
Even so im not good enough
Never have been
Satan would be my friend

No one will let me scream it out
Where's my friend to hold me
Stop clouding my mind you lifeless bastards
Pistol near my temple goes click, click boom

Is this my call for help
Maybe just a friend
Why cant someone hold my hand
Why cant I just be held

You thought I was strong
Look at me in the corner
Go ahead kick the shit out me
I wont fight back

Get your hand off me
Don't ever fucken touch me there
Leave me alone, get the hell out of here
Your not going to get me too

Can you feel my body heat rising
My eyes are piercing through you like daggers
Are you afraid yet
I don't mean to be so terrifying
Are you going to run away like the rest
No one stays around to hear me
Its all bull shit with me right
Grab your signs begin your protest

Sometimes I try to run away
Will anyone ever hold onto me
Im not perfect, is that okay
Sometimes I might just scream, would you still hold me anyway

Im sorry, what have I done
I cant do anything right
Someone rip my eyes out please
Not noone should see what I have seen

I don't hate you
I don't hate anyone
I just want to cut your eyes out
Watch them bleed endlessly on the floor

Don't worry im not crazy
This isnt insanity leaking through
I wont slice your throat
Not tonight, not tonight